After years of unsuccessful IVF cycles and hysterectomy at the age of 41, I grieved a death no one talks about; the Lost Dream of biological Motherhood. My mother died of cancer when I was 3 years old, so my need to be a natural Mother felt primordial; quaking to my blood and bones.
When IVF was finally over; my years lost, the unceasing injections, appointments and blood tests, hundreds of thousands spent, the isolation, hopelessness, and loss of simple sanity drove an unceasing, daily war with suicidal thoughts.
With best friendships distancing, my body ill, an imploded marriage, and career tanking, my heart turned to stone. The existential grief Zombie-deadened my soul with rage, jealousy, isolation, and hopelessness. I truly felt no purpose to keep breathing.
I could finally take Gandhi’s advise and, “Be the change we want to see in the world.”
The career trajectory and ‘Sum-Of-My-Parts,’ finally made sense.
As Member of and sanctioned by ASRM, The American Society of Reproductive Medicine, this scaleable, online, fully automated Coaching and Curriculum Program is first of its kind to address the “soft” or “humanitarian” side of assisted reproductive medicine field according to Top Leaders in the field of Assisted Reproductive Medicine; (*Individuals annotated below).
Newly launched, we have found support across the globe. In Delhi, India, Women’s Economic Forum’s conferred upon us the prestigious award, “Iconic Leaders Bettering the World for All.”
Film Producer/ Creator/Director/Writer Betsy Chasse (What the Bleep do We Know + 30 documentaries) created a short documentary film exploring women’s infertility, vulnerability and ‘telling the truth’ about my artwork, “The Empty Womb.” (Amazon Prime.)